“Just a cobbled lane to the treasure at the end” Meg Aves
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A storm cannot last forever just when you think it will…
The radiant sun breaks through
And so that is how it is with you
Just when you think life is so bleak
Along comes the promise of a brand new week
The storm clouds move on and leave a blue sky
And suddenly they don’t matter…all those questions why
Nature changes throughout the year
So we know if winter is amongst us, spring is near
And just when the sky goes completely black
Morning arrives and pulls the covers back
And so dawns another day, shades lighter than the night
And so too will your dawning come and your burdens will be light.
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Following the uncertain night of silence
Do the birds not sweetly sing?
After a long bleak winter
Is there not a beautiful spring
The farmer works for many hours
Does he not receive a lavish harvest
Do we not cry one minute and laugh in the next
I know you are struggling with inner pain
Take hope my friend the clouds will roll away
The sun will shine again.
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SURVIVOR STAND STRONG
You stole a piece of our childhood BUT we survived
You made us feel so broken BUT piece by piece we are restored
You made us feel so alone BUT we are many
You made us feel frightened BUT together we are unafraid
You knocked us down BUT we got back up again
You silenced us BUT together our voice is louder than ever
You made us feel bad BUT you were bad
You made us feel ashamed BUT the shame belongs to you
It did not break us and therefore it made us stronger
YES we SURVIVED
(Inspired by all the beautiful survivors I have met)
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JOURNEY OF WHY
For what purpose am I here is the question my soul doth cry
Why this, why that, why then, why, why, why
What was I born for, where is the reason
What is this journey, this time and season
As we travel through this thing called life with its
sweet and bitter tears
Some days we can be found on the mountain top
flying through our dreams
Tomorrow you may find me weeping,
falling apart at the seams
What difference can one person really make in
this thing we call living…
The joy in my journey is in loving and laughing and giving.
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Gradually she decided to take control and lift the lid herself
She went and took that box from the shelf
The contents she emptied all over the floor
One by one she explored them until they held no power anymore
With help she looked at the things which had hurt her very much
She remembered the damage, the agony of his touch
Sometimes she cried and wanted to throw it all back in the box
But she had moved on from secrets that chained the soul with
big locks.
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You cannot hurt her anymore
You are staying behind a locked and bolted door
I am taking back the child you stole
I am working hard to make her whole
She was innocent, you are to blame
You have the guilt and you carry the shame
My little girl was violated
No longer is she to be hated
I am taking the power away from you
I am the strong one now and little me too.
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I am putting it in its rightful place, I am giving it to him
All the brokenness and shame of his filthy ugly sin
I am putting it at his feet, I am ramming it down his throat
All the things he did to her that made her choke
I’m telling him he was bad and giving my little one some peace
The shackles belong to him and she deserves release
I am telling him he is disgusting, no greater than a piece of dirt
Bringing him to answer and to suffer for my little ones hurt.
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Screaming and shouting gone
Nothing but a memory to dwell upon
Blame and secrecy blown away
I am heading for my healing day
Lies brought out into the light
No more to haunt me in the still of the night
Childhood memories distanced from me
I am going to a place where I can be free
Tormenting voices silenced
No more twisted stories or violence
I have done it, I have begun to break the chain
& I am never going back again.
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I believe one day I will be free from the shadow of what you did
From the burden of a secret no longer hid
That I will look at the past and feel okay inside
& fetch from within the child who has wanted to hide
That she will be free to be a child again
That she will laugh more times than she has felt pain
I believe one day I will shed this clumsy figure you see
& everything that is ugly
It might take some time but that day will come
& when it does…
You will still have to live with what you’ve done.
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Why face the world this morning?
Because the promise of a new day is dawning
Because those whom you love want you in there day
The clock still ticks and things to be done wont go away
Because if you stay in bed you save it all up for tomorrow
Then harder the task and more hopeless the sorrow
Live it for someone else if you don’t want to live it for you
Press on in the darkness, press on until the light comes shining through.
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HOPE
I am hoping this is the darkest night before a most beautiful dawn
I am hoping that out of the void something wonderful is born
I am hoping the silence is going to be filled with laughter and positivity
I am hoping after walking these corridors one will lead me to be free
I am hoping for all the tears I cry now, a river of joy overflows not too far away
I am hoping the loneliest night will take me on to the richest day
I am hoping the struggle is worth it, hoping there is something worth finding
I am hoping against hope tonight because the pain is blinding.
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Little girl turn away from your desert of tears
All those storm ravaged and bitter years
Nothing to see in your desert for pleasure
Just agony stretching beyond measure
So turn away from your desert and see
A bountiful land being cultivated just for thee
Know that you can live again
Feeling peace where once was pain.
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PRISONER NO MORE
I rescue the little girl from his hand
I hold her and hug her, try to make her understand
That it is him I am angry with, angry as hell
I know she is too scared and too ashamed to tell
I know that she needs me now more than anything
Into her world some peace I can bring
I am holding her close to me and she is weeping
I am watching over her as she is sleeping
Any questions she has I will try to answer them all
I will be right beside her before and after school
She worries that she is bad and I do not love her anymore
But she has nothing to be guilty for
I just look at her little arms, legs, face
& I know my love can reach her in any place
As for him he has no part of her or me
I will never forgive and he should never be free
Because if I forgave I betray her pain
I would be letting her down again
It takes many words to make her understand why
Why nobody came to rescue her in the night
But I am rescuing her now, I am trying to make it right
I will do anything to restore to her those years she lost
Because she must be free to live her life
& HE must pay the cost.
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Get down on your knees and tell her what you did was bad
Look her in the eye, that little girl you made feel guilty and sad
Get down on your knees before the world and tell out what you did to that little one
The snatching of innocence and joy that had not long begun
Get down on your knees, look inside yourself and weep
For the little girl you raped when she was trying to sleep
Get down on your knees so she can stand tall and unashamed
For you are accountable, you are rightfully to blame.
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Little girl come out from hiding yourself away
Come and meet this new and healing day
Show me where it hurts so I can heal the pain
Raise you up to life again.
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I AM A SURVIVOR
You pushed me down so many times but I got back up again
You pushed me to the edge of my existence but I worked through the pain
You pushed me aside like a piece of rubbish but I know I am worth more
You pushed me to the ground but I did not remain on that floor
You made me question everything I ever knew
Yet the only questionable thing in my life was you
You pushed my childhood into a living hell
But I lived to tell because…
I AM A SURVIVOR!
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Reaching for something better
Even though the way is painful & challenging
Choosing more for ourselves than we currently have
Our journey is full of twists and turns
Voicing the past so that we can have the future
Enduring the battles and living for the victory
Remember how far we have come already
Yours is the hope of RECOVERY. (2012)
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“There is something beyond the silence… staying alive, to not be silent… and once you start you never want to be silent again. Though its not the easy road. But it is one that must be travelled… for change cant happen otherwise. But for those who cant speak out, or have to keep themselves safe, please carry on. And let some of us be a voice for you, because we hear you, don’t ever forget that”…John Harrison (Published author of Whispers From Within’)
“Do not see yourself as those who have abused you see you, as an object to be taken and used. But rather know that you all are beautiful souls, and that your inner beauty can never be erased by the tragic events that you have had to live through. Prove all those that have abused you wrong and live…live full and fruitful lives” .Ray Redner